Regret?

So I did mention that one of my biggest fears is probably the weight of regret...

“Never choose a friend without complete understanding and....

Never lose a friend because of a small misunderstanding.”

So if even just a friend requires a compete understanding...well then.

I chose wrong?

At least one of them somewhat likes me.

The other? It's me that somewhat likes him.

Being around him is strangely addictive.

But when we're apart, I think clearly.

What the f*** am I doing?

His negativity is so strong it's almost manifesting physically, 

a huge dark cloud, smothering everything around him.

And the other one...

He cares, even if it's for appearances sake.

Its flattering.

And he does have good qualities...
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Why do I make such bad choices? It's constantly happening.
Buddha, give me the strength to clear my mind and the wisdom to make the correct decisions.

5th in the world?